2015 so far

finally./ˈfʌɪnəli/
adverb after a long time, typically when there has been difficulty or delay.

finally i can get my hands on blogger.com and start typing an entry. finally, after the last one - last month. a month with no update. this caused by two things.

1. no wifi
2. no time

seriously, baru tiga minggu sekolah. tiga minggu. tiga. minggu. 15 hari. untuk aku, 14 la sebab aku ada ponteng sehari. baru sekolah dah ponteng. ponteng atas sebab tertentu alright. okay, so tiga minggu. i've been really busy se-busy-busy-nya. baru tiga minggu, tapi kerja sekolah dah berlambak-lambak. nak kena hantar pada hari yang sama pula tu.

serious tahun ni kena kejar masa sekejar-kejarnya.

hari sabtu ahad sekarang dah tak macam dulu. dulu boleh relax, chilling around in the house, tengok tv, surfing internet. but this year, buka mata terus buka buku. bukan aku la, tapi ada la orang lain. maybe. tapi still, dalam tiga minggu ni aku tidur pukul 10pm memanjang. penat kut. even dah tidur petang pun, malam after finish the homework, terus pejam mata. percaya tak aku siapkan homework? *angkat kening double jerk*

tahun lepas, tak. degil gila. pukul 3am pun tak reti-reti nak tidur. naik senior tahun ni, padan muka aku. tak cukup-cukup tidur.

kenapa tak ada siapa warning aku jadi senior ni memenatkan?

aku ingatkan best. yela. senior. senpai. dengar pun dah macam wah, bestnya! setahun lagi nak habis sekolah. tapi tengok la dalam setahun tu parah jugak lah nak menghabiskan hari-hari sekolah tu. stress memanjang. rasa nak baling kerusi meja je.

budak kelas aku pulak tak siuman. kerja nyanyi memanjang. bukan semua la, ada la setengah dari lelaki-lelaki dalam kelas aku tu. even cikgu tengah bercakap pun diorang boleh menyanyi. dah la duduk belakang aku. aku la yang jadi pendengar setia suara katak diorang tu. duduk kelas sains, perangai tak pape. cikgu pun ramai cakap macam bukan budak sains. lol. ada dua tiga kali jugak la aku snap at them. yela, orang nak buat kerja, dia menyanyi je. don't make me rip your throats out using my teeth.

nasib baik belum start tuisyen lagi. kalau dah daftar tuisyen nanti, lagi la langsung tak ada masa. siang malam jadul penuh. kalau bekerja orang panggil workaholic. kalau belajar ?

so a little note to kouhai, junior, belajar guna masa dengan bijak. jangan jadi macam aku. bila dah senior baru nak get use to time.

assalamualaikum.,

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setelah hampir satu tahun bertungkus-lumus buat kerja sekolah, dengar cikgu berucap setaip hari di tapak perhimpunan, akhirnya hari ini tamatlah persekolahan bagi 2014. aku tak tahu nak rasa happy atau sedih sebab tahun depan aku senior year. which means spm. sobs.

but now i don't want to talk about it. darn, i don't even know macam mana format diorang. katanya addmath ada kbat la. ok, tu biar tahun depan punya urusan. aku cuma perlu bersedia, yes.

alhamdulillah, untuk batch pertama yang ada ujian amali instead of kertas 3 untuk subjek fizik, kimia, bio, i'm glad to declare experiment berganda kali senang daripada kertas 3.

i'm gonna tell you serba sedikit about ujian amal for form 3 yang tahun depan form 4 kan. jangan terkejut pula haha

masa pertama kali aku masuk makmal fizik - sebab tu subjek amali pertama aku - i can feel myself shaking in nervousness. gila tak nervous. before this we always done an experiment in group. tup tup time exam kena buat sorang-sorang. menggeletar juga lah.

biasanya bunsen burner aku suruh orang lain tolong on kan, tapi kali ni kena buat sendiri. tu yang shaking tu. nasib baik first try dah boleh on. if not, aku tak tahu la nak minta tolong cikgu ke apa. then everything went well. memang best lah. walaupun tak boleh bercakap - sebab exam kan - tapi aku dengan orang sebelah aku bercakap juga. maklumlah, semua kitorang buat sama-sama lol.

then last day chemistry. rasa macam scientist pula sebab kitorang punya eksperimen penitratan; titration. so nak kena titik acid masuk dalam bes, guna fenolftalein, tengok bes tu tukar warna from pink to colourless bila dah neutral. best lah

eksperimen garam paling tak puas hati. sebab kitorang diberi serbuk x. then 1 kena campur dengan ammonia and 1 kena campur dengan natrium. aku punya natrium larut, ammonia tak larut. so i just put the serbuk x as aluminium. tup tup jawapan dia zink. sakit hati je sebab zink sepatutnya dua-dua larut. memang confuse habis lah. ada orang yang dua-dua tak larut.

tapi serious best. lepas dah habis buat eksperiment semua, aku ada masa lagi setengah jam. jadi disebabkan kebosanan yang melampau, aku campur garam dengan ammonia, then letak fenolftalein. memang merapu gila haha

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tadi ada bengkel bahasa computer daripada pelajar-pelajar unisel and i really really like it! diorang ajar basic html, everything that i've known tapi code memang tak sama langsung. i mean, kalau macam blogger kita nak letak background, warna tulisan pe semua, kita guna <style> tag kan? tapi ni tak. dia cam pelik and idk how to explain haha

memang best lah. abang fasi yang ajar aku and liza memang baik plus penyabar gila. everything yang dia ajar tu boleh faham la. kawan dia cakap, "fokus tau, ni antara pelajar terbaik kat unisel." hahaha yes, i'm focus! i can know how to preview the template i designed without using internet. just guna notepad sahaja. amazing, right? benda yang kita nampak macam remeh tu sebenarnya sangat berguna :)

idk la i thinkg i'm gonna take ict in the future and i already told my dad this, but he said no. typical parents will say that, honestly.

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congrats tu spm candidates yang dah terlepas dari azab sekolah menengah haha lepas ni dah free for 3 months - if tak masuk plkn lah - pergi cari kerja and do your best in the future!

adios amigos. thanks for reading this very long entry. it has been a long time since aku buat entri panjang camni haha

assalamualaikum x

p/s: kuasa veto my ayah membuatkan kitorang kena duduk terengganu for the whole december

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guten tag

assalamualaikum

hi. actually tak tau nak update apa tapi nak juga post something bagi mengelakkan bog ni berhabuk / boring sebab post yang sama every time aku check blog ni. ugh.

sooo fifa world cup 2014 is going to end soon. real soon. kind of disappoint lah tak dapat tengok netherlands lawan argentina next early morning. not because tak bangun sahur, but lack of astro at my house. so, yeah. but no worries, my baby robben van persie, i'll always cheering for you. just make sure you kick messi's ass out. (i like messi tho, i just say that because, i have to support my baby. no hate)

last night i watch the vampire diaries and guess what, stefan is actually silas' doppelganger. i know i'm lame and you probably know about this a long time ago, but whatever, i'm happy. and a bit sad. i ever thought of silas being one of them, but i don't expect him to be stefan! i wish it was caroline or damon. whoever but not stefan. idk man. stefan is my man.

last sunday i had a the fault in our stars movie date with my beautiful people. the movie was so great and sad and cute! i wish i can watch it over and over again! and if you're wondering, i went to watch the movie when they show it 2 days only. idk how to explain it but malaysia only siarkan pada hari sabtu dan ahad lepas. and dekat panggung wayang yang tertentu je. idk what you call it tbh ._.

it's fun lah because i spend all day at sunway piramid with them. getting lost, having funny moments, and went back home when most of the shops were closed. lol.

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lately i've been addicted to drawing. or sketching. or conteng. i don't know what to call my hideous looking drawing actually. i'll just looking at tutorial and keep trying until i get mad, scratch the paper and then start all over again. yep. that's me.

my mom told me that once upon a time when she was still in high school, she really loves drawing and painting. she said painting with water color is her specialties. she told me,

"dulu masa mak sekolah menengah lukisan mak selalu dapat 1." 

me, being as lame and blur ever respond with, "1 je." and it turn out that 1 is A+. so yeah. shame on me for being straightforward. and blur.

then she said when she's form 4, her teacher force her to take ekonomi rumah tangga. she said she was crying because her heart and soul were so into art. i felt sorry for her.

damn that teacher who force my mom for doing something she don't want to.

and now i ask her to teach me because apparently, her second daughter is suck at coloring.

i always sit in front of computer in living room. so when my dad come home from work and he see me drawing based on a reference on computer screen, he'll say,

"masa ayah sebaya angah, ayah pun selalu melukis dari buat kerja sekolah. asyik kena marah dengan arwah atuk je. kerja sekolah tak nak buat, melukis rajin."

lmao. same, dad. same. so then, you can't be mad at me because it's your perangai yang i'm following right now.

i ever saw some of his drawings and guess what, hIS TONES ARE PERFECT! DAD, PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE TEACH ME HOW YOU DO THAT PERFECT REALISTIC DRAWING.

and yeah, if you want to look at my drawing, you can follow my instagram. but sometimes i'm too lazy to upload the photo, so they might take some times. and sometimes the drawings are real ugliness, so please don't judge an ameteur like me or i won't draw ever again. yeah.

auf wiedersehen.
assalamualaikum.

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salam ramadhan

Assalamualaikum

i'm sorry if i'm late but i don't think i am.

alhamdulillah tahun ini dikurniakan kesihatan yang baik dan nyawa yang panjang dari Allah untuk kita berpuasa dan kumpul pahala pada bulan yang penuh pengampunan ini. semoga kita dapat menggunakan peluang yang ada untuk perkara yang dapat memberi syafaat kepada kita di akhirat kelak. insya'Allah.

salam ramadhan al-mubarak to my family, friends, every muslim around the world. may Allah ease everything and may your patience will be reward with heaven. insya'Allah.

plus this is a good chance on catching up with fifa. because you can sahur while watching your fave team's match. hehe.

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last friday we have this parents teacher's day. and it got me nervous because i don't know what the teachers will say to my mom. plus my mom arrive at 11.15 am, which is pretty late.

when it our turn, and i've been sweating for no reason, but it turn out that the teachers said i'm very quiet in class. the first thing i think when my account teacher say that is,

"haha you've been lied!"

i'm sorry, but i can't help it. i don't deny what they said is true, either. that's because i'm very quiet when teachers are teaching but got very loud when teachers wasn't around. so i guess i have two personalities? yeah. hehe.

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yesterday my family and i went to watch transformers: age of extinction. to whoever who hasn't watch it yet, you should! the movie IS very amazing and you wouldn't regret it! i swear it'll never get you bored. oh my god, you don't know how much my fingers want to type all the spoilers, but that'll be bad of me.

so i don't have anything else to be writing here, i guess this is a goodbye? until we meet again, lovelies :)

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Assalamualaikum

so lately asyik tukar design blog je because semua yang aku guna / edit aku rasa macam tak lawa. or cepat bosan. ni pun aku tak tahu sampai bila aku boleh tahan before i get bored ._. but i think this is my favorite theme at the moment because i actually struggle to make the pop up box work. so congrats to me for doing such a good job.

result is already out. alhamdulillah my result is getting better. at first rasa berdebar je bila cikgu masuk kelas bawa kertas exam. but the anxiousness disappear when i know my result is not bad like the last time. thank you to everyone who is there for me, teaching me patiently, answered all my questions. your patience is the key to my success.

this week sepatutnya tak ada cuti pun, sekolah sampai ahad. but heck, memang tak lah aku nak pergi sekolah hari ahad. dah la ada sukan je - which i don't take any part at all. this year tak ada geng. if fatin was here, we'll get into perbarisan. dia pun dah takde, so aku lone ranger dalam rumah hang tuah tu. it's okay, tuah. i'll be cheering from the house *smirk*

i want to write something. i already have the idea. but i'm such a failure when it comes to intro. so i guess not :(

so before i was asleep, aku ada idea nak update apa. tapi bila dah tidur, everything in my mind went to fly over somewhere else. so until we meet again.

this is not a goodbye.
assalamualaikum.

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Assalamualaikum

Hello earthlings! How are you and your holiday? I’m good and my holiday is boring. Thanks for asking.

+ First of all nak say congrats to Brazil because won 3-1 against Croatia. Neymar scored 2 goals. That’s my bby. And I’m disappointed with Spain because 1-5 woi gila apa. Kemain kau kalah. Ni nak sokong Netherlands. Dah la captain dia handsome. Kbye.

Haa who say girls don’t watch football? Here I am staying up this late alone, watching football. My brother masa first day je stay up. Konon nak tengok hari ni. Pui. Ugh after this dah tak boleh tengok unless the next day is Saturday or Sunday. School really is the death of me.

+ Secondly, tomorrow is the last day of holiday. Let’s cry thousand oceans ;_; Mat saleh baru start cuti summer, kita dah kena sekolah balik. Dah la till now tak tahu ada homework or not since my classmates sangat tak ambil port about this kind of thing. We’re rad, I know. But please, I don’t want to hear any teacher nag at us on the first day of school.

+ I read some of my old entries and fanfics and honestly, I don’t know whether I should die in embarrassment or die in laughter because both are accurate. All I had in my mind while reading through them was,

“What the hell was I thinking when I wrote this thing back then?”

They’re so shameful and I hope no one ever find that blog ever again.

+ I got Kimi Ni Todoke s1 & s2 2 days ago and haven’t finished it yet. I guess I have to use my school days to watch it. Yeah. I have something I can use to escape from the cruelty that is homework. Eyy Kazehaya is so cute!!

Tbh, I don’t really know what to write about apart from the update of the secret life of a procrastinator. Sometimes I have a lot of thing to write and that’s when I don’t have to pen and paper with me. It’s kinda pissing me off, but that’s how life goes. And when I do have them, my mind will go blank and I don’t know anymore. This often happen in exam, of course.

Talking about exam, there’s a celebrity that I adore. He is a completely great idol for a lazy person like me.  He is a singer and song-writer and also, 17 years old and just graduated from high school this month. Congrats to him! Why I said he’s such a good idol?

It’s because at age so young, he already released loads of songs and albums and in fact, he’s doing tour across the Europe and America right now. Now, imagine a 17 years old going that far, finish school and achieved highest point! How amazing that is, right?

I ever read a tweet, may I quote

“If *a 17 y/o musician name can studying while being in band, why can’t you? *insert the band member pictures when he’s studying*” 

I don’t want to mention names because I want to let your imagination gone wild and not to think they can do that because they’re smart or what, but because they had done a very hard work to finish school and get good grades.

You know, the tweet really stab me straight in the heart and also make me sad because I didn’t do my best in mid-term and now I’m sweating because I don’t know what my result yet. But I hope I can do better in the future.

Since the school decided to close my class, I don’t know which class I’ll be staying after this. I just hope that I can cope with the subjects because if I happen to be in account class, I have to start all over again. Same as my other classmates.

I hope this is not a bullshit talk like I often do.

I wish you all the best, since I probably won’t update this blog in a long time because school. Yes, blame everything on school. Now I don’t have social life. JK. Of course I have social life. I am a socialize girl. JK. No I dislike people. They’re annoying, prejudice and busybody. Hint: I wrote the sentence before this based of some people I know, so please… no hard feeling.

Farewell for now. To students, please survive. Don’t want you to go online as corpse.

Bye! Assalamualaikum :)

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Assalamualaikum

Hi you all. Hi. Hi. Hi. Hello. Konnichiwa. Bonjour. Hola. Guys. And girls.

Today is a happy day. I mean yesterday was a happy day. I mean yesterday’s after school was a happy time. I mean starting from yesterday to today to tomorrow till the next two weeks and half are happy days. And that’s all because I've finished my exam and mid-year holiday starting next week. I can’t wait!

Last night we celebrated out freedom and zouk and that is the best night ever! *lie

I know we’ll have two days of school next week but hell no, I’m not going.

I’ll have prep classes tho. But I don’t intended on waking up at 8am just to go to class every day. So I’ll probably just go to physics class since my school's penolong kanan is my physics teacher and I don’t want to listen to her nag about skipping her class. So yeah, I have to let go two days of freedom.

What is your plan for this holiday?

I don’t know if I’m going anywhere during this holiday. I don’t know if my parents are planning and haven’t told us yet. so, most of the time all I’ll do sleep, sleep, sleep, sleep, sleep, sleep, eat, eat, eat, eat, internet, internet, internet, internet, repeat. 

That’s how my life goes around when holidays come, children.  Be like me and you’ll be free from problems *for a while

*ehem* guys, I think I want to do shout out.

Shout out to everyone that have finished exam and have gone this far without punching a kid in the face!

I never told you this but there was a time when the boys in my class playing confession. They dare each one of them to confess to the girls. It’s fun to see they embarrass themselves. The girls were giggling and all when they were confessed. Then Afan dared Iqbal to confess to me – my classmates call me yakuza so you can guess why. Lucky me, I already had my answer in my head. so we goes like,

Iqbal: Saya sayaaaaang awak

Me: ye, aku tau kau sayang aku. Aku tau korang semua sayang aku. Thank you.

And we couldn't help but laugh. I mean everyone was laughing. I told ya, the game is fun when no feeling involved ;)

Dear you,
Are you a sun because I can see you shine bright like a star. I walked out of the mall, passing by the Starbucks, and I met your eyes. I catch a glimpse of your Starbucks’s cup and your name written neatly on it. At that moment, I feel like I want to tap my shoulder and say “nice work!” and then do ridiculous secret handshakes or even do double flips. And it’s just because I saw your name and your eyes.

I think this is a farewell, popsicles. Until I write – or type, whatever suit you – here again *which will take forever

p/s: gif above is when kushina asked sasuke to be friend with naruto. that part got me to tears ;;

Adios amigos. Assalamualaikum.

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May

Assalamualaikum.

Hi. It has been a long time no post but loads stories to tell. I just can’t find the right moment to write an entry and post it. Sorry! But this is the right moment to say,

“Aku rasa baru semalam bulan April.”

Ok tak lawak, tapi I love to say that and make people wonder why I said so. And, hello to May! I hope this month will be a nice month and oh, a month away from puasa! Can’t wait to collect every pahala we can get during Ramadhan :)

i. 26th April 2014

On this date, my school (SEMETRI) held a hari keusahawanan. It’s a great and happy day for me, but at the end, some people have to piss me off and it turn out to be ugly. But I don't want to talk about that, I just want to tell you about happy things. Because people don't like bad things. Honestly, even I don’t want to rewind the memories.

So on this day, Aqilah, my friend who has just moved to Myanmar last year were coming! The first moment I saw her I was like, ‘oh my god is this real are you really here!?’ because I can't trust my eyes. It had been um… 5 months since the last time we met her! We're getting excited meeting each other and yeah, it’s a great time to have a reunion haha!

Also the day was like ‘Selfie Day’ because people just can’t stop taking selfies. Monopod held on ones’ hand and people gathered around just to take a selfie. I think it’s a good thing because it brings people together. So yeah, selfie is okay. Haha.

ii. Midterm

I don’t want to talk about this but I have to let someone know so I will feel a lot better. That’s just how I was programmed.

MAY = EXAM MONTH
ME = DEAD

So exam will be taking place on 6th May and I don’t really fancy exam actually. But this is such an important exam for me. More important than when I had PMR I guess. Sebab berdasarkan result exam ni aku akan ditentukan untuk berada di kelas mana. I know it’s too late but that’s just how my school was programmed.

You know my class – 4 science 3 – we have prinsip perakaunan instead of biology. And the teachers decided to close our class because last year’s SPM results were not so good. So they want to close our class for ‘our own good’. We still don’t understand why they did that. Because last year’s SPM failure was never our faults.

We just want to have this class because we’re so close and it’s almost feels like we’re family and we’re getting to understand what we studied. We know when we have physics, chemistry, add math and account at the same time it’s almost feel like mind-blowing. But we never want anyone to close the class.

So yeah. Right now I have to make up my mind; account or science stream. If I want to continue my ambition as forensic, I have to study hard on physics, add math and chemistry and if I want to give up and be a businesswoman, I’ll just have to give my best on account.

It’s just as simple as that.

Unless it is not as simple as that.

iii. Kawan atau sahabat

Orang melayu selalu tanya “Antara kawan atau sahabat, yang mana kau akan pilih?”

Pada aku, kawan atau sahabat tu semua tak penting sebab pada mata aku semua orang berada di atas tanah yang sama. Apa yang penting kawan atau lawan. Tapi tak ada orang tanya sebab of course orang pilih kawan. Except you don’t know that your friend is your enemy.

So pada aku pangkat really no matters. Kau kawan atau tak, bila aku tak tau apa nak buat, aku tanya jugak sesiapa.

Betul, kalau kawan kau boleh suruh dia belanja, suruh dia buat itu ini. Tapi itu membuatkan kau lawan dia. Sebab apa? Sebab kau mempergunakan dia. You used them for your own benefits and that what make them go against you. Dan bila itu terjadi, kau jangan terkejut dan tunding jari dekat semua orang bila masalah yang sebenar adalah engkau.

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Have great days ahead. I’ll write again when I got the time. Insha’Allah. Please pray for my exam. And good luck to all of you that are taking exam as well. Assalamualaikum.

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Aimless

The thing about being human is we never keep promises. Especially when it's about time. We never be at the promised place on time. Even in a meeting we still can be late. That's why we don't deserve asking for more time because we already waste too much.

Manusia tak pernah bersyukur.

Assalamualaikum

Ceh, macam cakap dengan cermin sebab aku pun selalu buat macam tu. Janji pukul 10 tapi pukul 10 tu baru nak bersiap. Dan sampai kat tempat yang dijanjikan 10 minit kemudian. Tahu tak dalam masa 10 minit tu macam-macam boleh jadi dekat kawan yang tengah menunggu tu?

So don't waste your time over stupid little things. Ada kebaikan dan keburukan dalam lambat ni. Tapi rasanya lagi banyak keburukan. Contohnya, kena maki dengan orang yang menunggu. HAHA.
Peringatan ini dibawa khas oleh NLIZMA yang tak pernah tepati masa.

End of story about time.

School. Sekolah. Satu perkataan yang aku tak berapa nak suka. Because when we heard the word "school" our mind like automatically think about 'bangun awal' 'kerja sekolah' 'cikgu'.

I seriously hate school. I don't hate education. I just simply hate school. You know that's two different thing. I don't know how to explain, but it's different........ you know.

Today really pissed me off. Thing about school and a friend of mine. I hate thursday.

Assalamualaikum. Adios amigos.

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16th birthday

Assalamualaikum

HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY TO ME

Actually my birthday was yesterday but I don't have time to write here, so yeah. Happy belated birthday to me...?

I want to thank every single of your for birthday wishes, prayers and presents. Thank you for being you and thank you for knowing me.

I'm grateful to have such a wonderful life since I was born. Through up and down, happy and sad moments, I'm still able to look up and move on. Thank you for those people who're with me in the moments.

Thank you for my mom and dad, brother and sister for being the most amazing family I ever have! Thank you to my best friends for making me feel happy, sad, jealous, mad - for making me real. (Every friend of mine are the best. Just want to let you know.)

The most important is thank you to Almoghty Allah SWT for giving me chance to live with these people, to breathe the free air, giving me awesome life, fascinating family, great friends. Alhamdulillah.

♛

I honestly speechless when my friends in 4science2 sang a happy birthday song to me out of blue.

When ikah, ila, linda and aliah surprise me with my favorite cake (red velvet) as present.

When my beautiful Batrisyia gave me my favorite thing in the world as present.

And when my awesome dad gave my favorite car as present.

Thank you so much, I will never can thank you enough *insert heart eyes emoji*

Assalamualaikum :)
Goodbye.

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Happy December

It’s 1 December 2013. It is bloody First December of 2013.

How can time flies so fast? Since when time flies? Stop flying and walk like a man, dude. I’m not ready to fly with you because I’m not a freaking Peterpan!

Remember that time when I was so afraid to ride a bloody motorcycle???

And now I can even drive a bloody car???

Yeah, and it was happened in bloody same year.

Okay, should be really stops using the world ‘bloody’ now. Go blame Ron Weasley for good.

Happy December to everyone! I hope you’ll have good holidays. Yep, I’m really hoping that. What are you up to for hols? Something(s) great I supposed. Me? I’m nothing less. Going to be more bored when my sister goes back to college tonight and she will bring the bloody notebook along.

Guess I’ll be spending my time walking in and out of kitchen because there’s no bloody food in fridge. Lol no because I don’t have any better thing to do, do I? Okay, selain daripada menternak lemak.

30 November 2013 – Happy birthday to the best mum in the world! Happy birthday to mum, Zainuriah binti Ahmad. I freaking love her to the moon sun heaven and back.

She is the best mum ever because she is my mum and I’m cool. Just kidding. No, I’m talking the truth.

So we celebrate it with bursting into her room while she was sleeping and singing birthday song on top of our lungs because we are bloody cool family. Then we took her to the best restaurant we ever eat at. Plus my dad bought her new swatch. Awe ;w;

Wish my mum a belated birthday or we are not friends.

No, I’m just kidding. Haha.

1 December 2013 – Soooo today is the day my lovely babe Aqilah /I call her Kill bc I can/ will be departed to Myanmar. She moved there because of his father’s work and no, she’s not a citizen in fact she is Sarawakian. Lepas ni dah tak ada kek lapis Sarawak time habis cuti sekolah lepas raya ;____;

Whoa going to miss her so badly I can burst into tears right now. Berbatu jauhnya dan nak jumpa bukan buka tingkap boleh nampak muka. Kecuali kalau buka tingkap Skype. Memang boleh nampak muka. After this chat guna Twitter, Facebook dan Skype je la. Sebab nak call memang tak la. Buat habis duit jek.

omaigod i love her so much i hope she have a good flight!

Christmas is coming so with PMR result! [AGGRESSIVELY HAVING PANIC ATTACK] so basically me and my beautiful friend, Batrisyia had a serious deep conversation about this PMR result thingy. And based on the convers, I want to admit that my heart thumping so loudly I bet my neighbours could hear it.

Not even try to mention that we have serious deep conversation about money crisis because we are both broke right now

It is freaking 23 days more and “tick tock on the clock” I know it’s not going to be a loooooonngggg waiting because time flies. Time bloody flying and I can’t keep but because I’m a freaking turtle! Even snake can move faster than me.

Please don’t get me start fidgeting about PMR because I can rant about these 4 pages long.

/take a deep breath/

I just realize I have to attend a reunion – Al’s class when we were standard 6 – and I even forgot I signed up for it and paid. Bloody paid using my own money. And now I’m broke and sad. But Harry Styles’ stupidness always brings the happiness back. And stupidness is not even a word but I don’t care. He stills a bloody idiot that I love all the time.

I was just hitting on you about serious conversation with Batrisyia because I don’t even do ‘serious’.

But the conversation about money is seriously serious and deep. Give me some money so I can go back to my own self that don’t do ‘serious’.

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Bibir mengukir senyum apabila jarum saat jam dinding menginjak ke angka 12. Nafas dihembus tanda lega. Mulut tidak habis-habis mengucapkan Alhamdulillah tanda bersyukur. Peperiksaan Menengah Rendah yang ditunggu-tunggu oleh semua pelajar tingkatan tiga akhirnya berlalu. Dewan Lestari kedengaran hingar dengan suara celoteh pelajar-pelajar lepasan PMR itu setelah pengawas peperiksaan melepaskan para calon untuk pulang ke rumah.

Matanya meliar mencari kelibat rakan-rakannya. Maklumlah, mereka tidak berada di satu kelas yang sama. Pandangannya terhenti ke atas seorang pelajar perempuan yang berada tidak jauh darinya. Ibunya yang dipanggil dengan gelaran 'aunty' setia menanti si anak yang sedang terkial-kial memakai kasut. Langkah diatur ke arah anak-beranak itu.

Senyuman berbalas ketika dia sedang mengambil beg. Ketika dia berpusing, matanya disapa dengan senyuman lebar salah seorang rakannya. Gadis yang sedang berlari-lari anak ke arah mereka melompat riang. Bibirnya bergerak dan ketika itu suaranya dengan kuat mengatakan, "Yes! PMR dah habis!"

Assalamualaikum.

Dah letak hikayat baru ingat nak bagi salam. Mohon hantar penulis ke planet lain.

How are you today and last 33 days? I hope you are in pink because I am. Tak, tipu je. Kaki tengah sakit sebab melecet. Hasil belajar main ice skating right after habis exam. Padan muka aku. /Sebenarnya aku tak suka sangat guna perkataan ‘pink’ tu, tapi aku rasa macam nak guna, so please bear with me/

Lepas exam, petang tu terus serbu rumah Ikah/Ila and Fatin. Borong novel habis-habisan. Paling banyak ambil, Aliah. That girl yang dengan riang-rianya melompat tengah-tengah orang tu. Bila aku cakap banyak, maknanya sangat. Banyak. Serious tak tipu. Aku pun tak tahu macam mana dia nak bahagikan masa dia dengan baca novel yang sebanyak tu.

Esoknya, pergi Sunway Pyramid sebab nak main ice skating. Aku sangatlah tidak terer dalam main benda alah tu /in fact main kasut roda pun aku tak reti/ tapi sangatlah memuaskan bila aku berjaya jatuh tiga kali je *krik krik*

1. First, Aliah pergi tolak aku and Fatin.
2. Second, gelak tengok suwei /aka pembakar semangat kitorang/ jatuh. Karma, gelakkan orang then diri sendiri pun jatuh jugak. Depan abang-abang stripes handsome pulak tu -_-
3. Third, Fatin tergelincir and aku terjatuh atas dia.

Yes, kemalangan berikut bukanlah disebabkan oleh aku. Haha, sila bagi round applause *krik krik*

Aku memang pair dengan Fatin. Our fingers intertwined together as we skated on the ice. Our hands fit together perfectly as we didn’t fall quite much when we were together. /nampak tak ayat tu macam tengah karang novel? Meluat aku baca/ tapi bila Ikah Ila suruh skate sorang-sorang, terus stuck tak gerak-gerak. We were meant to skate together. Para pembaca boleh muntah sekarang. Kaki tengah sakit pun nak jugak skate sampai Ikah panggil makan.

Ehem, masuk Popular dekat Sunway nampak rak anime terus serbu. Serious rambang mata. Jalan-jalan dalam Popular tu meleleh je aku tengok semua buku. Nampak satu set buku Bloodlines, Vampire Academy, The Mortal Instruments, The Fault in our Stars. Cari Looking for Alaska, tapi tak ada ;~; Nampak buku-buku Jane Austen; Emma, Pride and Prejudice, Sense and Sensibility. Fatin pergi grab semua.

Then pergi tempat CD. Jumpa Before You Exit punya album sekali dengan buku dia. Serious nak nangis. Jalan kat rak international, jumpa Cody Simpson's Paradise dan Surfers Paradise. For the first time nampak Cody punya album dekat Malaysia.

Basically, kerja kitorang gasp je sepanjang 'berkampung' dalam Popular tu.

After hantar buku text tadi (10/10), singgah rumah Aqilah aka Kill. /I do call her that, so please bear with me/ ambil novel lagi. Yep, kitorang memang nak habiskan 2 bulan setengah masa cuti dengan baca novel sepanjang hari.

So, these are what I took from both of the houses.

I've got your number - Sophie Kinsella, You're the one that I don't want - Alexandra Potter, Tentang.. Dhiya - Syud, My precious Iris - Melur Jelita, I love you, stupid! - Melur Jelita and One day you'll be mine - Inawza Yusof

They said something was wrong with her. Something stuck in her mind. Made she walk like a zombie, eyes like hypnotized, talk like a robot. They were worried about her. Really was. When they asked whether she was okay or not, she just shook her head. And smiled.

Her eyes met a lot of people around her. She felt sinking in the ocean of people. Before she could sink even deeper and drown, she pulled her legs and walked away. She did not turn back when her friends kept calling her name.

She was breathing through her lips, hands crunching her school uniform and eyes looking away, distracting herself. But it did not happen as always.  Before she could stop, a tear escape, along with another one, another one, another one. Sobs sounded from her parted lips. Her shoulders rocked up and down while her hands tried to get the tears away.

But it did not work out as usual. And that day she cried again and again.

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Peperiksaan Menengan Rendah atau lebih dikenali sebagai PMR dah semakin dekat. Mengikut kiraan yang telah dibuat oleh kawan-lawan aku, lagi 25 hari. Tapi aku masih juga seperti dulu. Buat-buat tak ambil kisah. Sebab lagi aku fikir pasal benda tu, lagi serabut otak aku.

Disebabkan tak nak fikir pasal PMR tu, aku just concentrate on belajar je. Buat-buat macam aku belajar untuk PMR yang lagi 4-5 bulan. Dan definisi bagi belajar bagi aku ialah duduk dengan kawan, buka buku, buat latihan, tanya bila tak faham. Standard aku buat macam tu untuk mathematics je. Sebab itu subjek yang paling aku lemah. Tak suka, tapi kena cuba survive untuk 25 hari ni.

31/8 pergi tengok wayang dengan Bat and Sab. Ayah Bat drive. Hajat nak pergi The Curve, tapi jammed tak gerak-gerak. Lepas tu decided to go to the One Utama je. Wayang start pukul 7, kitorang sampai pukul 6. Beli tiket. Satu jam jalan-jalan around the One Utama. 6. 50 masuk balik, beli popcorn, masuk panggung.

Cerita: This Is Us. One Direction punya biography. 3D. Best sangat. Rasa nak tengok lagi. Lagi. Lagi dan lagi. Tapi PMR, so lupakan je.

4/9 pinjam DVD dari Sab. Cerita: Conjuring. Tengok dengan Disaster Five dekat rumah aku. Hi-Fi turned to high volume, suara hantu tu menjerit sampai tiga buah rumah boleh dengar. Best sangat-sangat. Serious tak tipu.

6/9 Ikah and Ila tak datang, Iffah pun sama. Which mean aku lonely. All I’ve done was ambil buku KH, jalan pergi kelas RK1 sebab aku memang belajar KH dekat situ. Aku dan separuh dari budak kelas tu. Budak kelas aku yang lain yang ambil Perdagangan dan Keusahawanan, pilihan 4 belajar dekat bilik jahitan. Dengan budak kelas RK1 juga. Buat paper set 2 KH, dapat 43/60. Takpa, ada kemajuan. Alhamdulillah.

Kelas aku dan RK1 tu jaraknya bersamaan dengan satu padang bola sepak. Aku kena keliling satu sekolah tu baru boleh sampai kelas. Serious tak tipu. Sampai je dekat kelas, ustazah tengah mengajar. 3 helai kertas yang ustazah bagi tu, 2 helai diorang dah siap bincang. Serious aku dah ketinggalan. Tapi takpa, sebab lepas tu aku revise balik dengan Hanim.

Pergi rehat dengan Al and Fatin. Makan keropok lekor dan air coco. Macam biasa. Berborak tak ingat dunia. Masuk kelas lepas 5 minit waktu rehat tamat. Macam biasa Al dengan Fatin hantar balik ke kelas.

Sampai dekat kelas, time sejarah. Cikgu tak ada. Bosan tahap petala kelapan sebab dua masa. Duduk dekat tempat sendiri, ambil buku The Book of Tomorrow dan baca.Orang sebelah dengan belakang tak datang, jadi aku just duduk diam dan baca buku novel tu. Shariz dua tiga kali lalu sebelah aku sambil pegang kertas maths yang cikgu bagi.

Satu couple yang aku pernah sound sebab pegang tangan tu sibuk berborak dengan kawan-kawan dia. Sakit mata, sakit hati. Aku sound diorang, diorang buat lagi. Depan aku pulak tu. Saja nak menunjuk yang diorang tu buat dosa. Haih, jahiliah moden lah katakan. Nak je aku sound lagi.

Tiba-tiba Shariz berdiri dekat meja sebelah aku. Aku pandang dia dan dia tengah pegang kertas maths dengan dia punya pencil case. Dia cakap, "Nak duduk sini. Sana bising. Boleh?" aku angguk je. Sebenarnya apa yang dia cakap aku dengar sama-samar je. Sebab earphone dari awal dah sumbat telinga.

"Baca novel?"

Angguk. Dia minta tengok tajuk.

"The book of tomorrow." Dia sebut. Lepas tu dia pandang kertas dia balik dan aku kembali menatap buku dekat tangan.

Aku ternampak perempuan-perempuan dekat depan aku pandang jeling-jeling. Maybe dalam hati diorang, "eleh, cakap orang. Dia pun sama." aku buat-buat tak nampak je. Diorang tak tahu yang jarak aku dengan Shariz  satu kerusi boleh letak which mean agak jauh. Aku okay je duduk sebelah lelaki as long as we don’t touch each other and that guy tak kacau pembacaan aku.

Tak lama lepas tu, aku feel mengantuk tahap giga and I fell asleep. 15 minit, cikgu still tak masuk. Otak dah tepu, so aku decided untuk buat kerja maths tu. Agak lama jugalah aku berguru dengan Shariz nak siapkan kertas maths tu. Dia pun sabar je layan perangai kasar + banyak tanya aku. Nasib badan dapat kawan perempuan macam aku.

Based on the entry, aku rasa korang tahu kut aku jenis orang yang macam mana. Selalu tak ambil kisah pasal benda penting. The last but not least, for the coming soon PMR, aku harap aku boleh survive. Tak sabar nak habis, merdeka for awhile before masuk form 4. Haih, the feeling lah. Goosebumps.

I'm so sorry I can't tell you. I'm not ready and I'm so afraid. I just don't want you to look at me in different perspective. I'm truly sorry...

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Eidulfitri

Assalamualaikum

Hi hello sup, konnichiwa.

Okay, before raya dah buat post konon nak ucap selamat hari raya and sekarang buat lagi sebab nak ucap lagi. Tak, nak cerita time first and second raya dekat kampong. Kenapa dua hari je? Sebab petang tu dah balik Bandar Tasik Puteri. Tak menyempat. Nasib lah dah stay kat kampung dua hari before raya. Kira adil lah kan, dua hari before and two days after. Hehe.

First thing came on my mind masa tweet benda kat atas ni, just my baju kurung and jubah okay. Sebab dua-dua warna ungu. Tak sangka pulak yang langsir and balang kat rumah ni warna ungu jugak. Lagi tak sangka yang sepupu-sepapat belah ak pun temanya warna ungu jugak. So first day tu memang nampak ungu je lah. Family mak lang, mak andak dengan mak da. Semua warna ungu. Serious tak sangka yang I all pun termasuk dalam column ikut tema. It was fate because coincident is so not exist, okay!

Then duk lepak dengan Kak Ju and her daughter (anak mak lang). Along duk brag about her crush and so on. Kak Ju awal-awal pesan dekat I all supaya tak jadi macam along. “Awak jangan jadi macam kak long awak ni. Time belajar, awak belajar elok-elok.” Dan I all pun macam woodpecker, just sengih and angguk je. Then dia cerita her experience time melahirkan Damia, her daughter. So ngeri okay. I all rasa macam tak sanggup je nak kahwin plus dapat anak. She thought about that but then she said, “tapi lepas tu best. Lepas tengok anak rasa macam hilang semua rasa sakit tu.” k whatever. I’m still underage, okay.

That was before mak andak and her family come. Then time Kak Siti and her husband came,  Kak Ju said, “awak kalau nak bercinta time belajar jadi macam Siti tu. Dia jumpa dengan Jamil time tengah belajar lagi.” Untunglah berkekalan. Tapi macam zaman sekarang ni macam susah je nak dapat orang yang setia...? /erk, cakap macam ada pengalaman je/


Second day raya semua duk berkumpul dekat rumah mak da. Okay, sebenarnya tak berjanji pun but it just happened for us to be under the sae roof! Kitorang jugak sambut birthday Kak Nita. Keh, sepupu I all yang dah ada anak dua orang tu pun sambut birthday siap beli kek lagi kau, jah! Kak Wati excited nyanyi lagu ‘Allah selamatkan kamu’. Tak padan ada anak tiga orang pun, perangai still lagi macam budak-budak, which is good sebab dia sangat sporting. K, kalau nak cakap pasal sporting rasanya semua cousin I all sporting... kut?

Kecuali lelaki lah, itu biasa sebab I all pun rasa awkward bila bergaul dengan diorang. Anak-anak sedara tu belakang punya cerita. /tua dah I all ni sampai ada anak-anak sedara/ tsk. Tapi tetap tak nak mengaku yag diri tu dah layak dipanggil ‘Mak Ngah’. Kena ajar budak-budak ni panggil ‘Aunty Izu’. Kan vogue gitu! /kan dah berjangkit dengan Al panggil diri sendiri izu/

Then, petang tu pun balik Bandar Tasik Puteri along with my Wan. Sebab beliau nak ikut sama. Kenduri kahwin Kak Jimah nanti balik sana balik. Oh, talk about kenduri buat I all teringat dekat pendrive yang tertinggal dekat rumah Wan tu... konon dah ingat kat diri sendiri yang pendrive tu elok sangkut atas paku dekat pintu bilik, last-last lupa jugak. Tu lah, dulu-dulu rajin sangat kutip semut buat ulam. Padan muka diri sendiri.

Nampak tak keterujaan dia? Actually nak pergi time raya pertama tu, tapi macam tempah main kejar-kejar dengan mak sambil baling lemang je gayanya, so tukar rancangan. Yang pasti, hari khamis minggu depan duk dekat dalam panggung tu dari pagi sampai malam. Kenapa? Sebab nak tengok semua movie yang sibuk nak keluar time raya pertama tu. Kira macam top up lah, hehe.

Masa kat kampung, as I said I did brought two novels. Both dah habis baca dalam masa dua hari sebab bosan tahap giga. Time dah habis dua-dua tu, baru terasa yang suasana dekat kampung tu best jugak berbanding di bandar. Nampak tak yang I all langsung tak stop baca kecuali untuk mandi, solat and berbuka. So Lyana.

Tak sabar nak tengok Malaysia vs Barcelona. My brother said Malaysia is so going to 'tersungkur' sebab Messi main. Heh, tak hairan pun.

Keh, aku ni cerita bagai nak rak. Tapi aku tahu korang bukan faham pun ;~;

Until we meet again,

Assalamualaikum.

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Eid

Assalamualaikum

How are you? I’m fine here. More than fine. Hehe.

Trial dah habis. Yeay! Honest said, masa lepas ambil kertas sejarah aka kertas terakhir sebelum habis trial, rasa macam free sangat. Free from exam. Serious exam membuatkan otak ana semak dengan buku-buku yang perlu ditelah. As you all know, I’m not kind of student yang suka mengadap buku 24/7. Tapi belum tentu score yang ana dapat menandingi orang yang duk baca buku bagai nak gila.

Nak cakap pasal susah senang masa jawab soalan? Tak payah taip pun anta semua tahu macam mana rasanya jawab trial and confirm lagi susah than peperiksaan yang sebenar. Except you are 11 years old and below.

Hanya beberapa hari tinggal sebelum kita menyambut hari raya aidilfitri. Rasa macam sekejap sangat Ramadhan kali ni. Mungkin sebab ana struggled for trial last week yang membuatkan  ana rasa Ramadhan ni macam sekejap. Or ana didn’t use the time wisely..?

I’m pretty sure sekarang mak anta tengah bertungkus-lumus mengemas rumah untuk menyambut hari raya. Ana tahu sebab mak ana yang dekat rumah pun macam tu. Kalau boleh semua benda nak dibasuh. /Nasib baik sofa tak muat masuk washing machine/ Baju raya pun mesti dah berpasang-pasang sampai tak muat almari. Ana punya as usual dua pasang and both purple. I don’t even know why I choose purple. The jubah was supposed to be black, but since we can’t find any black jubah that fit my size, so... yeah.

On my last day puasa dekat BTP, ana telah berbuka puasa dengan my girls in Disaster Five. Kitorang just beli makanan dekat  bazar and headed back to the kembar's house since their parents already left to their hometown. Diorang akan naik flight to Kelantan on Wednesday so we took this opportunity to iftar together, which the idea was came from me. Sebelum, semasa dan selepas berbuka tu mata tetap tak beralih dari kaca tv sebab tengah tengok siaran animax. As we're kaki anime, so no wonder lah kenapa kitorang tak berkelip pandang tv. And before balik, sempat jugak tukar-tukar novel, komik dengan cd yang semestinya anime je. /Penuh lah beg ana esok dengan komik and novel saja/ 

Okay the last but not least, I want to say, selamat menyambut hari raya aidilfitri kepada semua umat Islam di seluruh dunia. Ana berharap anta dapat menyambut hari raya kali ini dengan gembira tanpa ada kesan main mercun bila naik sekolah nanti.

And we decided to terjah panggung wayang as soon as we come back from our hometown because the smurfs 2, percy jackson 2, how to train your dragon 2 akan ditayangkan on first day of Syawal. Memang movie marathon lah lepas balik dari kampung tu.

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