a friend

  

i watched this anime and they're super duper cute cherry on top  

Assalamualaikum

first of all, i want to  thank those bloggers yang follow this blog. this crap blog, actually. i update every trillion years and only god knows who read these entries. haha. but still, anyway, thank you for spending you time here. i don't think i give enough credit to all of you. oh, and thanks for complimenting my blog. i have been through hell to make that header work, actually.

 i don't mean to start this entry with this, actually. to be honest, i have been clicking this "create post" page every five minutes. i want to write something, but i don't have any idea what to write about. haha what a crappy blogger i am. sorry.

aku bosan sebenarnya.

selalunya aku dengar dari seniors, hidup lepas spm ni best la. maybe best untuk yang ada kerja. but why no one warn me of how boring is a life without a work? i swear to god, i feel like studying and i hate study. all these novels i have been reading, they always keep me distracted. but now i cant focus on them. i just feel. really. bored.

i'm sorry you have to hear me whining. those juniors be like, "bersyukurlah dah habis sekolah." haha you know what, you're right. i should be grateful. alhamdulillah.

alright, since i don't know what to write about, let me tell you about a friend of mine.
he was classmate when we were 15 years old (form 3). i actually don't exactly remember how i know him, but i remember that he is a die hard otaku. yep, he is. still is to be honest. so every time we are together - we are not actually together, i mean when we hang out together *you know what, i'll shut up now - we're only after 1 topic: anime. yep, that's all we ever talk about.

okay so, when i first know that he is an otaku, i was like begging him to give everything related to anime to me. i gave my pendrive - my baby who is dead now - to him. and he put in that pendrive like tens of openings and endings of anime he recommended to me and two 12 episodes anime. at that moment i was like "wow, this guy honestly. i like you". but not like that. never like that.

a thing about this guy was he always came to school late. hampir setiap hari jugak la dia datang sekolah lepas loceng bunyi. kadang-kadang dia masuk kelas sebelum loceng waktu rehat berbunyi. he is a badass. i mean, everyone doesn't want to be late to school because of the punishments they will get from the teachers. but this guy, this particular guy came to school on his whims. i mean, how is that behavior even possible?

so one day, me and my friends asked him, "weh asal kau selalu datang lambat?" and he said, "aku bangun lambat." so we asked him again, "asal kau tidur lambat?" and his greatest answer was, "aku tengok anime."

and just like that ladies and gentlemen, he managed to make us dropped our jaws right then and there.

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attention to every man in the world, if you want a girl fall for you, your words have to be 'honeyed'.

lmao. the words above was taken from a friend of mine's english oral text. credit to him. and thanks for have a faith in me to read through and comments here and there. even though i can't stop laughing at the word 'honeyed'.

howdy earthlings *waves*

sorry for not being here in such a long time. sekarang busy dengan kerja rumah, kerja kursus akaun, hafal sejarah, report fizik lagi. sigh. semua benda kena buat dalam satu hari tak boleh jugak. actually right now pun ada homework, tapi since dah tidur petang tadi so hopefully malam ni boleh sengkang mata lah silat dengan addmaths.

hari tu pergi mall and ila parked the car at the rooftop. guess what, i almost die. half way to the rooftop, i had trouble breathing. bayangkan bila aku - seorang perempuan yang ada acrophobia - ada dekat atas bangunan 4 tingkat. rasa macam bila-bila masa je aku boleh mati. the feeling of being on top a building makes my stomach sick, my heart drops, oxygen is not the invisible thing i breath to keep my lungs active.

then, kawan-kawan aku pula jenis yang tak ada fear of height langsung. selamba je pergi dekat penghadang tu sambil jeguk bawah. Ya Allah, aku tak tahu lah apa perasaan diorang masa kat situ. takkan tak ada sikit pun perasaan gayat. aku fikirkan tempat tinggi pun dah rasa goosebumps.

last week i bought novel The Host. but until now tak baca lagi. idk lah bila nak baca. tengah baca satu novel yang dari 2 bulan lepas tapi sampai sekarang tak habis-habis lagi. kadang-kadang bosan jugak baca novel yang banyak sangat cliche. nak jugak baca something and different from others. hm.

until we meet again, sweetcheeks.
auf wiedersehen.

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guten tag

assalamualaikum

hi. actually tak tau nak update apa tapi nak juga post something bagi mengelakkan bog ni berhabuk / boring sebab post yang sama every time aku check blog ni. ugh.

sooo fifa world cup 2014 is going to end soon. real soon. kind of disappoint lah tak dapat tengok netherlands lawan argentina next early morning. not because tak bangun sahur, but lack of astro at my house. so, yeah. but no worries, my baby robben van persie, i'll always cheering for you. just make sure you kick messi's ass out. (i like messi tho, i just say that because, i have to support my baby. no hate)

last night i watch the vampire diaries and guess what, stefan is actually silas' doppelganger. i know i'm lame and you probably know about this a long time ago, but whatever, i'm happy. and a bit sad. i ever thought of silas being one of them, but i don't expect him to be stefan! i wish it was caroline or damon. whoever but not stefan. idk man. stefan is my man.

last sunday i had a the fault in our stars movie date with my beautiful people. the movie was so great and sad and cute! i wish i can watch it over and over again! and if you're wondering, i went to watch the movie when they show it 2 days only. idk how to explain it but malaysia only siarkan pada hari sabtu dan ahad lepas. and dekat panggung wayang yang tertentu je. idk what you call it tbh ._.

it's fun lah because i spend all day at sunway piramid with them. getting lost, having funny moments, and went back home when most of the shops were closed. lol.

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lately i've been addicted to drawing. or sketching. or conteng. i don't know what to call my hideous looking drawing actually. i'll just looking at tutorial and keep trying until i get mad, scratch the paper and then start all over again. yep. that's me.

my mom told me that once upon a time when she was still in high school, she really loves drawing and painting. she said painting with water color is her specialties. she told me,

"dulu masa mak sekolah menengah lukisan mak selalu dapat 1." 

me, being as lame and blur ever respond with, "1 je." and it turn out that 1 is A+. so yeah. shame on me for being straightforward. and blur.

then she said when she's form 4, her teacher force her to take ekonomi rumah tangga. she said she was crying because her heart and soul were so into art. i felt sorry for her.

damn that teacher who force my mom for doing something she don't want to.

and now i ask her to teach me because apparently, her second daughter is suck at coloring.

i always sit in front of computer in living room. so when my dad come home from work and he see me drawing based on a reference on computer screen, he'll say,

"masa ayah sebaya angah, ayah pun selalu melukis dari buat kerja sekolah. asyik kena marah dengan arwah atuk je. kerja sekolah tak nak buat, melukis rajin."

lmao. same, dad. same. so then, you can't be mad at me because it's your perangai yang i'm following right now.

i ever saw some of his drawings and guess what, hIS TONES ARE PERFECT! DAD, PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE TEACH ME HOW YOU DO THAT PERFECT REALISTIC DRAWING.

and yeah, if you want to look at my drawing, you can follow my instagram. but sometimes i'm too lazy to upload the photo, so they might take some times. and sometimes the drawings are real ugliness, so please don't judge an ameteur like me or i won't draw ever again. yeah.

auf wiedersehen.
assalamualaikum.

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Over

Assalamualaikum

Hi you all. Hi. Hi. Hi. Hello. Konnichiwa. Bonjour. Hola. Guys. And girls.

Today is a happy day. I mean yesterday was a happy day. I mean yesterday’s after school was a happy time. I mean starting from yesterday to today to tomorrow till the next two weeks and half are happy days. And that’s all because I've finished my exam and mid-year holiday starting next week. I can’t wait!

Last night we celebrated out freedom and zouk and that is the best night ever! *lie

I know we’ll have two days of school next week but hell no, I’m not going.

I’ll have prep classes tho. But I don’t intended on waking up at 8am just to go to class every day. So I’ll probably just go to physics class since my school's penolong kanan is my physics teacher and I don’t want to listen to her nag about skipping her class. So yeah, I have to let go two days of freedom.

What is your plan for this holiday?

I don’t know if I’m going anywhere during this holiday. I don’t know if my parents are planning and haven’t told us yet. so, most of the time all I’ll do sleep, sleep, sleep, sleep, sleep, sleep, eat, eat, eat, eat, internet, internet, internet, internet, repeat. 

That’s how my life goes around when holidays come, children.  Be like me and you’ll be free from problems *for a while

*ehem* guys, I think I want to do shout out.

Shout out to everyone that have finished exam and have gone this far without punching a kid in the face!

I never told you this but there was a time when the boys in my class playing confession. They dare each one of them to confess to the girls. It’s fun to see they embarrass themselves. The girls were giggling and all when they were confessed. Then Afan dared Iqbal to confess to me – my classmates call me yakuza so you can guess why. Lucky me, I already had my answer in my head. so we goes like,

Iqbal: Saya sayaaaaang awak

Me: ye, aku tau kau sayang aku. Aku tau korang semua sayang aku. Thank you.

And we couldn't help but laugh. I mean everyone was laughing. I told ya, the game is fun when no feeling involved ;)

Dear you,
Are you a sun because I can see you shine bright like a star. I walked out of the mall, passing by the Starbucks, and I met your eyes. I catch a glimpse of your Starbucks’s cup and your name written neatly on it. At that moment, I feel like I want to tap my shoulder and say “nice work!” and then do ridiculous secret handshakes or even do double flips. And it’s just because I saw your name and your eyes.

I think this is a farewell, popsicles. Until I write – or type, whatever suit you – here again *which will take forever

p/s: gif above is when kushina asked sasuke to be friend with naruto. that part got me to tears ;;

Adios amigos. Assalamualaikum.

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May

Assalamualaikum.

Hi. It has been a long time no post but loads stories to tell. I just can’t find the right moment to write an entry and post it. Sorry! But this is the right moment to say,

“Aku rasa baru semalam bulan April.”

Ok tak lawak, tapi I love to say that and make people wonder why I said so. And, hello to May! I hope this month will be a nice month and oh, a month away from puasa! Can’t wait to collect every pahala we can get during Ramadhan :)

i. 26th April 2014

On this date, my school (SEMETRI) held a hari keusahawanan. It’s a great and happy day for me, but at the end, some people have to piss me off and it turn out to be ugly. But I don't want to talk about that, I just want to tell you about happy things. Because people don't like bad things. Honestly, even I don’t want to rewind the memories.

So on this day, Aqilah, my friend who has just moved to Myanmar last year were coming! The first moment I saw her I was like, ‘oh my god is this real are you really here!?’ because I can't trust my eyes. It had been um… 5 months since the last time we met her! We're getting excited meeting each other and yeah, it’s a great time to have a reunion haha!

Also the day was like ‘Selfie Day’ because people just can’t stop taking selfies. Monopod held on ones’ hand and people gathered around just to take a selfie. I think it’s a good thing because it brings people together. So yeah, selfie is okay. Haha.

ii. Midterm

I don’t want to talk about this but I have to let someone know so I will feel a lot better. That’s just how I was programmed.

MAY = EXAM MONTH
ME = DEAD

So exam will be taking place on 6th May and I don’t really fancy exam actually. But this is such an important exam for me. More important than when I had PMR I guess. Sebab berdasarkan result exam ni aku akan ditentukan untuk berada di kelas mana. I know it’s too late but that’s just how my school was programmed.

You know my class – 4 science 3 – we have prinsip perakaunan instead of biology. And the teachers decided to close our class because last year’s SPM results were not so good. So they want to close our class for ‘our own good’. We still don’t understand why they did that. Because last year’s SPM failure was never our faults.

We just want to have this class because we’re so close and it’s almost feels like we’re family and we’re getting to understand what we studied. We know when we have physics, chemistry, add math and account at the same time it’s almost feel like mind-blowing. But we never want anyone to close the class.

So yeah. Right now I have to make up my mind; account or science stream. If I want to continue my ambition as forensic, I have to study hard on physics, add math and chemistry and if I want to give up and be a businesswoman, I’ll just have to give my best on account.

It’s just as simple as that.

Unless it is not as simple as that.

iii. Kawan atau sahabat

Orang melayu selalu tanya “Antara kawan atau sahabat, yang mana kau akan pilih?”

Pada aku, kawan atau sahabat tu semua tak penting sebab pada mata aku semua orang berada di atas tanah yang sama. Apa yang penting kawan atau lawan. Tapi tak ada orang tanya sebab of course orang pilih kawan. Except you don’t know that your friend is your enemy.

So pada aku pangkat really no matters. Kau kawan atau tak, bila aku tak tau apa nak buat, aku tanya jugak sesiapa.

Betul, kalau kawan kau boleh suruh dia belanja, suruh dia buat itu ini. Tapi itu membuatkan kau lawan dia. Sebab apa? Sebab kau mempergunakan dia. You used them for your own benefits and that what make them go against you. Dan bila itu terjadi, kau jangan terkejut dan tunding jari dekat semua orang bila masalah yang sebenar adalah engkau.

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Have great days ahead. I’ll write again when I got the time. Insha’Allah. Please pray for my exam. And good luck to all of you that are taking exam as well. Assalamualaikum.

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16th birthday

Assalamualaikum

HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY TO ME

Actually my birthday was yesterday but I don't have time to write here, so yeah. Happy belated birthday to me...?

I want to thank every single of your for birthday wishes, prayers and presents. Thank you for being you and thank you for knowing me.

I'm grateful to have such a wonderful life since I was born. Through up and down, happy and sad moments, I'm still able to look up and move on. Thank you for those people who're with me in the moments.

Thank you for my mom and dad, brother and sister for being the most amazing family I ever have! Thank you to my best friends for making me feel happy, sad, jealous, mad - for making me real. (Every friend of mine are the best. Just want to let you know.)

The most important is thank you to Almoghty Allah SWT for giving me chance to live with these people, to breathe the free air, giving me awesome life, fascinating family, great friends. Alhamdulillah.

♛

I honestly speechless when my friends in 4science2 sang a happy birthday song to me out of blue.

When ikah, ila, linda and aliah surprise me with my favorite cake (red velvet) as present.

When my beautiful Batrisyia gave me my favorite thing in the world as present.

And when my awesome dad gave my favorite car as present.

Thank you so much, I will never can thank you enough *insert heart eyes emoji*

Assalamualaikum :)
Goodbye.

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Happy December

It’s 1 December 2013. It is bloody First December of 2013.

How can time flies so fast? Since when time flies? Stop flying and walk like a man, dude. I’m not ready to fly with you because I’m not a freaking Peterpan!

Remember that time when I was so afraid to ride a bloody motorcycle???

And now I can even drive a bloody car???

Yeah, and it was happened in bloody same year.

Okay, should be really stops using the world ‘bloody’ now. Go blame Ron Weasley for good.

Happy December to everyone! I hope you’ll have good holidays. Yep, I’m really hoping that. What are you up to for hols? Something(s) great I supposed. Me? I’m nothing less. Going to be more bored when my sister goes back to college tonight and she will bring the bloody notebook along.

Guess I’ll be spending my time walking in and out of kitchen because there’s no bloody food in fridge. Lol no because I don’t have any better thing to do, do I? Okay, selain daripada menternak lemak.

30 November 2013 – Happy birthday to the best mum in the world! Happy birthday to mum, Zainuriah binti Ahmad. I freaking love her to the moon sun heaven and back.

She is the best mum ever because she is my mum and I’m cool. Just kidding. No, I’m talking the truth.

So we celebrate it with bursting into her room while she was sleeping and singing birthday song on top of our lungs because we are bloody cool family. Then we took her to the best restaurant we ever eat at. Plus my dad bought her new swatch. Awe ;w;

Wish my mum a belated birthday or we are not friends.

No, I’m just kidding. Haha.

1 December 2013 – Soooo today is the day my lovely babe Aqilah /I call her Kill bc I can/ will be departed to Myanmar. She moved there because of his father’s work and no, she’s not a citizen in fact she is Sarawakian. Lepas ni dah tak ada kek lapis Sarawak time habis cuti sekolah lepas raya ;____;

Whoa going to miss her so badly I can burst into tears right now. Berbatu jauhnya dan nak jumpa bukan buka tingkap boleh nampak muka. Kecuali kalau buka tingkap Skype. Memang boleh nampak muka. After this chat guna Twitter, Facebook dan Skype je la. Sebab nak call memang tak la. Buat habis duit jek.

omaigod i love her so much i hope she have a good flight!

Christmas is coming so with PMR result! [AGGRESSIVELY HAVING PANIC ATTACK] so basically me and my beautiful friend, Batrisyia had a serious deep conversation about this PMR result thingy. And based on the convers, I want to admit that my heart thumping so loudly I bet my neighbours could hear it.

Not even try to mention that we have serious deep conversation about money crisis because we are both broke right now

It is freaking 23 days more and “tick tock on the clock” I know it’s not going to be a loooooonngggg waiting because time flies. Time bloody flying and I can’t keep but because I’m a freaking turtle! Even snake can move faster than me.

Please don’t get me start fidgeting about PMR because I can rant about these 4 pages long.

/take a deep breath/

I just realize I have to attend a reunion – Al’s class when we were standard 6 – and I even forgot I signed up for it and paid. Bloody paid using my own money. And now I’m broke and sad. But Harry Styles’ stupidness always brings the happiness back. And stupidness is not even a word but I don’t care. He stills a bloody idiot that I love all the time.

I was just hitting on you about serious conversation with Batrisyia because I don’t even do ‘serious’.

But the conversation about money is seriously serious and deep. Give me some money so I can go back to my own self that don’t do ‘serious’.

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hello november + BBQ party

Assalamualaikum

How are you guys? I’m fine, apart from my throbbing toothache – which no longer throbbing now. I’m just so glad the pain stop because I don’t know if I can take it any longer. Ahah.

Ah, dah lamanya tak buat post time macam ni. 1st day of every month – even sekarang dan 3rd. Mana taknya, bulan-bulan yang lepas kononnya nak focus on PMR, tapi lepas ambil PMR ni rasa malas yang sememangnya dah berbukit tu bertambah jadi gunung pula.

Rutin lepas PMR: tidur, makan, online, melukis and do it all over again. Ha, nampak tak yang aku ni tak ada life? Ceh, ada la bila Disaster Five sibuk tarik aku keluar rumah menghadap Ryohei ((matahari)) jalan-jalan keliling tasik. Dan semestinya ‘jalan-jalan’ tu maksudnya drive sampai block 3 yang hujung dunia tu untuk main buaian semata-mata. Betapa tak sihatnya aktiviti yang DF buat sepanjang tak pergi sekolah ni.

1st November 2013 –  pergi sekolah, ambil buku form 4. Sedih kejap mengenangkan yang diri ini nak naik form 4 less than 2 months. Dengan perangai yang still lagi dalam mode childhood, rasanya boleh kut survive untuk 2 tahun lagi. Walaupun nak ambil SPM lagi dua tahun, tapi haha, childhood mode forever on. Messing around is a part of me and I can’t easily change it without hurting another part of me.

2nd November 2013 – the day was like the best day I could ever ask for. My family balik kampung and I was willingly to stay at home alone sebab tak nak terlepas a BBQ party dianjurkan oleh kelas sendiri. BBQ tu set up at Noor’s house – at block 3. For the first time ever I felt like we own the night. It was amazingly perfect! Even tak semua orang datang, tapi BBQ tu still meriah.

Part memasak memang dah bagi dekat orang yang willingly datang rumah Noor lepas asar. Bagi kitorang yang tak berapa nak rajin ni, datang pukul 8 je. Ahah! I’m glad to have the twins – Ikah and Ila – drive us to Noor’s house. Kalau tak, memang tak lah nak datang naik motor.

We – Iffah, Ikah and Ila – conquer the only table that stand alone at the corner of the khemah ((dan dekat dengan makanan)) nampak tak permainan dia? Duduk dekat situ sebab malas nak duduk ramai-ramai dengan orang lain – diorang duduk dekat 3 or 4 meja yang bersambung jadi satu meja panjang. Malas nak crowded sangat ((dan jauh dari makanan)) kitorang just decided untuk duduk situ. Tak, itu semua penipuan. Tak terfikir pun nak duduk situ. Sampai-sampai terus tarik kerusi sebab malas berdiri. Dan baru perasan meja tu stand alone beberapa jam kemudian.

And we never expect some guys from our class nak duduk satu meja dengan kitorang. And that some guys are the guys that sleep over at Noor’s house because helping him – my ‘beloved-15k-future-husband-aka-my-neighbour-aka-my-worst-enemy-ever’ ((pls note the sarcasm)), Shahril and Noor. Seriously each time they open their mouths to speak, I just can’t stop myself from laughing. They’re just too funny! Even the way they talk got me crack a chuckle.

Not try to mention they planned to burn down my house since I stay alone that day. How brilliant the idea -_-

I was kind of lost track of time as we arrive home 15 minutes away from midnight. I got the twins to stay at my house for the night, which is lucky since I’m not that brave to stay alone without bad thought filling my mind. But then we stay up till 3 am because watching Ouran High school Host Club. It’s not my fault when the twins suddenly open the anime – and I can't say no to Hikaru and Kouru.

So, that was our night. Completely perfect. But everything got the end of them, same as the night. Hopefully we can do the same BBQ party all over again. Or at least, I quoted our teacher saying, “5 tahun akan dating kita akan duduk sama-sama macam ni, bawah satu khemah yang sama. Tapi ada satu atau dua orang akan duduk diam.”

A wedding.

“The chains of habit are too light to be felt until they’re too heavy to be broken.” – Haikal Johari: Anthem by Hlovate

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Bibir mengukir senyum apabila jarum saat jam dinding menginjak ke angka 12. Nafas dihembus tanda lega. Mulut tidak habis-habis mengucapkan Alhamdulillah tanda bersyukur. Peperiksaan Menengah Rendah yang ditunggu-tunggu oleh semua pelajar tingkatan tiga akhirnya berlalu. Dewan Lestari kedengaran hingar dengan suara celoteh pelajar-pelajar lepasan PMR itu setelah pengawas peperiksaan melepaskan para calon untuk pulang ke rumah.

Matanya meliar mencari kelibat rakan-rakannya. Maklumlah, mereka tidak berada di satu kelas yang sama. Pandangannya terhenti ke atas seorang pelajar perempuan yang berada tidak jauh darinya. Ibunya yang dipanggil dengan gelaran 'aunty' setia menanti si anak yang sedang terkial-kial memakai kasut. Langkah diatur ke arah anak-beranak itu.

Senyuman berbalas ketika dia sedang mengambil beg. Ketika dia berpusing, matanya disapa dengan senyuman lebar salah seorang rakannya. Gadis yang sedang berlari-lari anak ke arah mereka melompat riang. Bibirnya bergerak dan ketika itu suaranya dengan kuat mengatakan, "Yes! PMR dah habis!"

Assalamualaikum.

Dah letak hikayat baru ingat nak bagi salam. Mohon hantar penulis ke planet lain.

How are you today and last 33 days? I hope you are in pink because I am. Tak, tipu je. Kaki tengah sakit sebab melecet. Hasil belajar main ice skating right after habis exam. Padan muka aku. /Sebenarnya aku tak suka sangat guna perkataan ‘pink’ tu, tapi aku rasa macam nak guna, so please bear with me/

Lepas exam, petang tu terus serbu rumah Ikah/Ila and Fatin. Borong novel habis-habisan. Paling banyak ambil, Aliah. That girl yang dengan riang-rianya melompat tengah-tengah orang tu. Bila aku cakap banyak, maknanya sangat. Banyak. Serious tak tipu. Aku pun tak tahu macam mana dia nak bahagikan masa dia dengan baca novel yang sebanyak tu.

Esoknya, pergi Sunway Pyramid sebab nak main ice skating. Aku sangatlah tidak terer dalam main benda alah tu /in fact main kasut roda pun aku tak reti/ tapi sangatlah memuaskan bila aku berjaya jatuh tiga kali je *krik krik*

1. First, Aliah pergi tolak aku and Fatin.
2. Second, gelak tengok suwei /aka pembakar semangat kitorang/ jatuh. Karma, gelakkan orang then diri sendiri pun jatuh jugak. Depan abang-abang stripes handsome pulak tu -_-
3. Third, Fatin tergelincir and aku terjatuh atas dia.

Yes, kemalangan berikut bukanlah disebabkan oleh aku. Haha, sila bagi round applause *krik krik*

Aku memang pair dengan Fatin. Our fingers intertwined together as we skated on the ice. Our hands fit together perfectly as we didn’t fall quite much when we were together. /nampak tak ayat tu macam tengah karang novel? Meluat aku baca/ tapi bila Ikah Ila suruh skate sorang-sorang, terus stuck tak gerak-gerak. We were meant to skate together. Para pembaca boleh muntah sekarang. Kaki tengah sakit pun nak jugak skate sampai Ikah panggil makan.

Ehem, masuk Popular dekat Sunway nampak rak anime terus serbu. Serious rambang mata. Jalan-jalan dalam Popular tu meleleh je aku tengok semua buku. Nampak satu set buku Bloodlines, Vampire Academy, The Mortal Instruments, The Fault in our Stars. Cari Looking for Alaska, tapi tak ada ;~; Nampak buku-buku Jane Austen; Emma, Pride and Prejudice, Sense and Sensibility. Fatin pergi grab semua.

Then pergi tempat CD. Jumpa Before You Exit punya album sekali dengan buku dia. Serious nak nangis. Jalan kat rak international, jumpa Cody Simpson's Paradise dan Surfers Paradise. For the first time nampak Cody punya album dekat Malaysia.

Basically, kerja kitorang gasp je sepanjang 'berkampung' dalam Popular tu.

After hantar buku text tadi (10/10), singgah rumah Aqilah aka Kill. /I do call her that, so please bear with me/ ambil novel lagi. Yep, kitorang memang nak habiskan 2 bulan setengah masa cuti dengan baca novel sepanjang hari.

So, these are what I took from both of the houses.

I've got your number - Sophie Kinsella, You're the one that I don't want - Alexandra Potter, Tentang.. Dhiya - Syud, My precious Iris - Melur Jelita, I love you, stupid! - Melur Jelita and One day you'll be mine - Inawza Yusof

They said something was wrong with her. Something stuck in her mind. Made she walk like a zombie, eyes like hypnotized, talk like a robot. They were worried about her. Really was. When they asked whether she was okay or not, she just shook her head. And smiled.

Her eyes met a lot of people around her. She felt sinking in the ocean of people. Before she could sink even deeper and drown, she pulled her legs and walked away. She did not turn back when her friends kept calling her name.

She was breathing through her lips, hands crunching her school uniform and eyes looking away, distracting herself. But it did not happen as always.  Before she could stop, a tear escape, along with another one, another one, another one. Sobs sounded from her parted lips. Her shoulders rocked up and down while her hands tried to get the tears away.

But it did not work out as usual. And that day she cried again and again.

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coming soon

Assalamualaikum

Peperiksaan Menengan Rendah atau lebih dikenali sebagai PMR dah semakin dekat. Mengikut kiraan yang telah dibuat oleh kawan-lawan aku, lagi 25 hari. Tapi aku masih juga seperti dulu. Buat-buat tak ambil kisah. Sebab lagi aku fikir pasal benda tu, lagi serabut otak aku.

Disebabkan tak nak fikir pasal PMR tu, aku just concentrate on belajar je. Buat-buat macam aku belajar untuk PMR yang lagi 4-5 bulan. Dan definisi bagi belajar bagi aku ialah duduk dengan kawan, buka buku, buat latihan, tanya bila tak faham. Standard aku buat macam tu untuk mathematics je. Sebab itu subjek yang paling aku lemah. Tak suka, tapi kena cuba survive untuk 25 hari ni.

31/8 pergi tengok wayang dengan Bat and Sab. Ayah Bat drive. Hajat nak pergi The Curve, tapi jammed tak gerak-gerak. Lepas tu decided to go to the One Utama je. Wayang start pukul 7, kitorang sampai pukul 6. Beli tiket. Satu jam jalan-jalan around the One Utama. 6. 50 masuk balik, beli popcorn, masuk panggung.

Cerita: This Is Us. One Direction punya biography. 3D. Best sangat. Rasa nak tengok lagi. Lagi. Lagi dan lagi. Tapi PMR, so lupakan je.

4/9 pinjam DVD dari Sab. Cerita: Conjuring. Tengok dengan Disaster Five dekat rumah aku. Hi-Fi turned to high volume, suara hantu tu menjerit sampai tiga buah rumah boleh dengar. Best sangat-sangat. Serious tak tipu.

6/9 Ikah and Ila tak datang, Iffah pun sama. Which mean aku lonely. All I’ve done was ambil buku KH, jalan pergi kelas RK1 sebab aku memang belajar KH dekat situ. Aku dan separuh dari budak kelas tu. Budak kelas aku yang lain yang ambil Perdagangan dan Keusahawanan, pilihan 4 belajar dekat bilik jahitan. Dengan budak kelas RK1 juga. Buat paper set 2 KH, dapat 43/60. Takpa, ada kemajuan. Alhamdulillah.

Kelas aku dan RK1 tu jaraknya bersamaan dengan satu padang bola sepak. Aku kena keliling satu sekolah tu baru boleh sampai kelas. Serious tak tipu. Sampai je dekat kelas, ustazah tengah mengajar. 3 helai kertas yang ustazah bagi tu, 2 helai diorang dah siap bincang. Serious aku dah ketinggalan. Tapi takpa, sebab lepas tu aku revise balik dengan Hanim.

Pergi rehat dengan Al and Fatin. Makan keropok lekor dan air coco. Macam biasa. Berborak tak ingat dunia. Masuk kelas lepas 5 minit waktu rehat tamat. Macam biasa Al dengan Fatin hantar balik ke kelas.

Sampai dekat kelas, time sejarah. Cikgu tak ada. Bosan tahap petala kelapan sebab dua masa. Duduk dekat tempat sendiri, ambil buku The Book of Tomorrow dan baca.Orang sebelah dengan belakang tak datang, jadi aku just duduk diam dan baca buku novel tu. Shariz dua tiga kali lalu sebelah aku sambil pegang kertas maths yang cikgu bagi.

Satu couple yang aku pernah sound sebab pegang tangan tu sibuk berborak dengan kawan-kawan dia. Sakit mata, sakit hati. Aku sound diorang, diorang buat lagi. Depan aku pulak tu. Saja nak menunjuk yang diorang tu buat dosa. Haih, jahiliah moden lah katakan. Nak je aku sound lagi.

Tiba-tiba Shariz berdiri dekat meja sebelah aku. Aku pandang dia dan dia tengah pegang kertas maths dengan dia punya pencil case. Dia cakap, "Nak duduk sini. Sana bising. Boleh?" aku angguk je. Sebenarnya apa yang dia cakap aku dengar sama-samar je. Sebab earphone dari awal dah sumbat telinga.

"Baca novel?"

Angguk. Dia minta tengok tajuk.

"The book of tomorrow." Dia sebut. Lepas tu dia pandang kertas dia balik dan aku kembali menatap buku dekat tangan.

Aku ternampak perempuan-perempuan dekat depan aku pandang jeling-jeling. Maybe dalam hati diorang, "eleh, cakap orang. Dia pun sama." aku buat-buat tak nampak je. Diorang tak tahu yang jarak aku dengan Shariz  satu kerusi boleh letak which mean agak jauh. Aku okay je duduk sebelah lelaki as long as we don’t touch each other and that guy tak kacau pembacaan aku.

Tak lama lepas tu, aku feel mengantuk tahap giga and I fell asleep. 15 minit, cikgu still tak masuk. Otak dah tepu, so aku decided untuk buat kerja maths tu. Agak lama jugalah aku berguru dengan Shariz nak siapkan kertas maths tu. Dia pun sabar je layan perangai kasar + banyak tanya aku. Nasib badan dapat kawan perempuan macam aku.

Based on the entry, aku rasa korang tahu kut aku jenis orang yang macam mana. Selalu tak ambil kisah pasal benda penting. The last but not least, for the coming soon PMR, aku harap aku boleh survive. Tak sabar nak habis, merdeka for awhile before masuk form 4. Haih, the feeling lah. Goosebumps.

I'm so sorry I can't tell you. I'm not ready and I'm so afraid. I just don't want you to look at me in different perspective. I'm truly sorry...

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Out and about

Assalamualaikum

It has been a long time since my last post. I always have time to do so, but my laziness keeps me away from typing an update. So how are you guys? I’m fine here, Alhamdulillah.

The trial has passed and I already got the result. It’s not bad as before, so Alhamdulillah. I hope my PMR result will be so much better than this trial, insya-Allah. I’m currently struggling to understand mathematics, with my friend’s help insya-Allah I can get good mark for math. /you don't even wanna know how much I hate math, but I have to keep the hate aside/

Last two weeks, I guess, Disaster Five and I went to watch Percy Jackson: Sea of Monsters and Planes. Both of the movies are amazing! I never watch Percy Jackson: Lightning Thief but after my friends told me quick synopsis, I can understand the movie well.

Planes is just so funny that you laugh your lungs out! I like the movie even it’s for kids, but Disaster Five looked like didn’t mind that at all because their minds just like 4 years old. Ehem. We watched that movie just because Aqil, the twins’ youngest brother wanted to watch it. So we just say okay.

At the end of the day, Aunty Zawiah refused to take our money as we were going to pay the movies tickets back. Now I know how the twins can be so kind to everyone. It’s originally from their mother.

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I love it when we got bonded together again. I just miss when our laughs collide into a loud laugh. I love it when we did not change our way of talking even it has been a long time we didn't stay in my house and talk about everything.

I love it when they hugged each other. I can see the fondness inside their eyes. I love it when I just laughing watching both of them hugging. I can’t help the feeling inside my heart. I miss this happiness we built together as old friends. I miss it so much it is hurting a part of me.

I hate it when they fight against each other because of a girl. They are twins and never can be separate away! How can they hate each other just because of a girl who will not necessarily be their rights? I love the twins so much I don’t want to see they have an argument about anything.

The feeling he made me feel inside my stomach is hurting as I force my eyes look at him.

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Eid

Assalamualaikum

How are you? I’m fine here. More than fine. Hehe.

Trial dah habis. Yeay! Honest said, masa lepas ambil kertas sejarah aka kertas terakhir sebelum habis trial, rasa macam free sangat. Free from exam. Serious exam membuatkan otak ana semak dengan buku-buku yang perlu ditelah. As you all know, I’m not kind of student yang suka mengadap buku 24/7. Tapi belum tentu score yang ana dapat menandingi orang yang duk baca buku bagai nak gila.

Nak cakap pasal susah senang masa jawab soalan? Tak payah taip pun anta semua tahu macam mana rasanya jawab trial and confirm lagi susah than peperiksaan yang sebenar. Except you are 11 years old and below.

Hanya beberapa hari tinggal sebelum kita menyambut hari raya aidilfitri. Rasa macam sekejap sangat Ramadhan kali ni. Mungkin sebab ana struggled for trial last week yang membuatkan  ana rasa Ramadhan ni macam sekejap. Or ana didn’t use the time wisely..?

I’m pretty sure sekarang mak anta tengah bertungkus-lumus mengemas rumah untuk menyambut hari raya. Ana tahu sebab mak ana yang dekat rumah pun macam tu. Kalau boleh semua benda nak dibasuh. /Nasib baik sofa tak muat masuk washing machine/ Baju raya pun mesti dah berpasang-pasang sampai tak muat almari. Ana punya as usual dua pasang and both purple. I don’t even know why I choose purple. The jubah was supposed to be black, but since we can’t find any black jubah that fit my size, so... yeah.

On my last day puasa dekat BTP, ana telah berbuka puasa dengan my girls in Disaster Five. Kitorang just beli makanan dekat  bazar and headed back to the kembar's house since their parents already left to their hometown. Diorang akan naik flight to Kelantan on Wednesday so we took this opportunity to iftar together, which the idea was came from me. Sebelum, semasa dan selepas berbuka tu mata tetap tak beralih dari kaca tv sebab tengah tengok siaran animax. As we're kaki anime, so no wonder lah kenapa kitorang tak berkelip pandang tv. And before balik, sempat jugak tukar-tukar novel, komik dengan cd yang semestinya anime je. /Penuh lah beg ana esok dengan komik and novel saja/ 

Okay the last but not least, I want to say, selamat menyambut hari raya aidilfitri kepada semua umat Islam di seluruh dunia. Ana berharap anta dapat menyambut hari raya kali ini dengan gembira tanpa ada kesan main mercun bila naik sekolah nanti.

And we decided to terjah panggung wayang as soon as we come back from our hometown because the smurfs 2, percy jackson 2, how to train your dragon 2 akan ditayangkan on first day of Syawal. Memang movie marathon lah lepas balik dari kampung tu.

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